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A Hill Ain’t a Hill without a Valley Below

‘I am the greatest, says who?

Says me

Validation starts with one and that one is me

The greatest at what?

The greatest at ME

Shucks, sometimes I ask myself how it feels to me.’

-Different Being Author

‘HUMANITY’

Through Poetry’s Eyes

It’s not that I want you to believe me or even agree

I just have a hard time not being me

If I offend you, indirectly or not

Charge it to my humanity cause my souls SPEAKS A LOT

Everything that is known is not always necessary to state

It’s like saying that Humans breathe

I need a vacation from myself God said “Don’t you dare.”

I admit its hard fighting myself I just want someone to care.

We are made from the dust, so we are meant to scatter/It easy to lust but so hard to matter.

We are puppets with no strings

Created then destroyed with no understanding of why

We chose at will with no hands to guide our motions

Our noses don’t grow with lies

But our souls grow with experience

What must a Puppet Maker think of such an unconventional creation?

The Human Being

We differentiate ourselves from each other

But the only difference is we have different Mothers

In us, dwells the same sacred thing

Doesn’t matter whether you’re blue, black or green

We ALL have souls and that makes us the same

When you curse me, you curse your own name

So next time you regard me in a bad light Realize that we are all ONE in God’s sight

I find myself chasing humanity

Like seconds chase minutes on the wall

I try not to be like myself

Sometimes I don’t feel human at all

I find myself hiding myself

Eclipsed like the Sun behind the Moon

I want to stow away myself

In the furthest corner in the back room

I find myself loving myself

Like the stars that hold the sky

Sometimes I like being myself

But sometimes I just don’t want to try

I find myself hating myself

Holding on like fire atop the sea

It’s not that I don’t appreciate myself

It’s just hard being apart of humanity

I’m not my body, despite what you say

I’m not my attributes, they too go away

Instead I am my Soul that deliberately flows

Turning this way & that, where ever it goes

I’m not my body it won’t matter when I die

My soul is what counts, it exceeds the sky

So don’t be blue about your physical self

Know that perfection is your spiritual self

Not how much you possess or what you own

No, it’s the soul that’s beautiful, the soul lives on

My brown eyes turned blue when the purple sky cried

Rain drops fell and filled my eyes

The thunder in my heart beat thru my chest

Lightening paralyzed my body and put me to rest

Now my body passed on beyond the storm

Life is so much easier w/o this bodily form

We went from Adam to Atom bombs and turned rights to wrongs

But Humanity can’t seem to live and still get along

We have war over religion and call it politics

We brutalize the weak and think He doesn’t notice it

The Sudanese walked 1,000 miles to escape Muslim defeat

When Americans complain about the Prada’s on their feet

We can change, it isn’t a mystery

But first we must not make money more important than Humanity

Humans complicate God
Give Him “Godly” attributes
Like He HAS good and He HAS mercy without looking at the root

God IS good and God IS mercy
But we personify Him
There are no parts to make up God
There’s no magic to figure

God is quite simple
Just look in the mirror
Throw away your composite philosophies
They don’t even matter

Because what we “see” really isn’t so
It’s just our human perspective
There’s no mystery to know
We use religion as an elective

And then we call it Godly
We claim to have all the glory
Without seeing the obvious
That God is a story

It never ends
It simply goes around
And then around again

Much like the seasons
With the absence of time
It’s not that God is complicated
It’s that we complicate the Divine

When I pass on please do not weep; I have 99 Elephants marching behind me We are on our way to the mountaintop Nothing can detour us-we can’t be stopped

My life is gone but my soul lives on; God is with me, I finally made it home

We were borrowed from the Earth, its only right that we give ourselves back; Our Human bodies are mere reflections of its origin and all it lacks; Bodies and souls don’t mix like snow in the deep of May; But somehow we make it work as our Creator did that day; The Soul has a life sentence and the prison is called Humanity; Earth life is not my Soul’s life, release me from this insanity

We confuse Human Happenings with Higher Happenings and blame them on God without realizing that Human Happenings are bad decisions that are our own cause

Higher Happenings are things like death or bad weather

Human Happenings & Higher Happenings are confused & often mixed together

Learn the difference and life will turn a different leaf

Happenings are useless if you don’t know which ones to keep

You can’t take it with you though you think you may

Things aren’t meant to last and souls aren’t meant to stay

One day we will leave this Earth and we will go alone

It doesn’t matter how much money you had or how many cars you owned

You can’t take it with you no matter how hard you try

Earthly things are not Godly things; our home is in the sky

The fall of Humanity is on the rise

We try to deny it but it’s hard to hide

We think we breathe and just keep on breathing

It’s not that simple we are delicate machinery

Every vessel has to work for our hearts to beat right

We think we know it all but our view is out of sight

Don’t take life for granitite and thank God daily

We are walking miracles but some of us don’t appreciate it

Fame is something that most of us secretly want

We go thru great lengths to have a piece of it even for just once

But as fascinating as it seems it doesn’t live up to its name

Once you’ve got it, your life won’t be the same

It’s like a flame that’s pretty but too deadly to touch

It’s warm from a distance but once in it, its 2 much

Fame is a popular noun that claims all its dreams

Fame is nice to know, but it’s not everything

We always want more it’s a curse of our name

Human beings are in constant need since the day we came

Give me more, we say, we are never satisfied

We can’t live with just bread we need butter on the side

Stop needing more it doesn’t tally up in the end

Wanting more is where Humanity’s deepest pride begins

Possessions and expectations give the greatest anxiety

It’s hard to function in such a status quo society

The more you have the more valuable your name/The more you flaunt it, the more others want the same

We put too much weight on the things we have

We talk about the poor and in their faces we laugh

Humans are like kids asking for 99 snow cones

You want all you can eat but you can’t take any home

They say I’m ‘addicted to hurry’, I just can’t slow down

Time seems to run out like sunshine in the Winter time

There’s just not enough time to do all I need to do

The one thing that was pressing, has now turned into two

But God told me to slow down, it doesn’t pay to hurry through life Stop and take a glance, He said, soon it will pass you by

Solid raindrops fall on me, they won’t leave me alone

The storm won’t stop calling, so I turn off my phone

My heart was once whole but now it’s filled with doubt

Seems the more that comes in the less I get out

I try to dodge them but there are too many to avert

I close off my soul but they break through my hurt

Stop these solid raindrops from falling on me

Before my tears turn to stone and I am only a statue of my reality

‘It was an untimely death’, that statement makes me wonder

How all deaths are untimely but Humans make them numbered

From the first breath we take the clock starts ticking

We live each day to die as if it’s all worth living

We all try to deny it but death will become us

It’s not to be feared but embraced like God whom chose us

The world is made of three types of people

Elephants, Giraffes and Ants

Elephants impose their will and often have to recant

Giraffes reach for their dreams and stand tall and proud

Ants are the methodical ones that are small but there presence is loud

Whichever you are help others to discover

God didn’t make this kingdom to dwell alone we are all here for each other

Water don’t run up, it runs down the hill

But you keep listening to Jack and Jill

God gave you knowledge to spread to the masses

But Life is too good up there thru those rose colored glasses

You high up on your horse, won’t come down from that cloud

You want us to join you but you won’t put the ladder down

You say you’re the Teacher you know what to say and do

Silly Teacher, you’re no good if the students can’t hear you

We come in the world alone and we die alone, therefore judgment should be left ALONE

‘LIFE’ Through the Eyes of Poetry

Cause and effect is what makes Life happen

You can think of ideas but it’s nothing without action

You can hope for more money but it won’t come without work

You can want to lose weight but not without some hurt

Words can be empty or words can be full

But a car in perfect condition can’t run without fuel

Life is so much easier when you take TIME, SPACE and MATTER out of the equation. None of it really exists, it just seems that way from down here

Sometimes even after all you’ve planned to do

Life throws a wrench in what you wanted to pursue

You took all the right steps to avoid this plight

Now all your hard work seems to be out of sight

You want to give up and close the door

But no great thing is easy, so try once more

Try once more and then try again

It’s not the loss that counts- it’s the will to win

They say you can’t fight fate there is no doubt in that

Once something goes wrong you can’t take it back

Sometimes in life we end up in an unpredictable state

God told me to tell you be patient and wait

Like trees bare in the Winter

The leaves will come round again

If we didn’t have dark days, we wouldn’t appreciate the light when it comes in

Someone asked should we live to the fullest or pray and plan our way

It doesn’t really matter when we can’t see the next day

We think we know the future but the future doesn’t know us

We work until we fall without knowing we chose the wrong focus

So balance fun and planning and life will go better

Even the greatest Weather Man isn’t all-for-all in predicting the weather

Pleasure requires for pain to come first

We try to avoid it but that's how it works

If all things felt good there'd be nothing to appreciate

But we can't see that because we have too much to satiate

Babies wouldn't be miracles if it was easy to have them

We have to go thru the night for the daylight to happen

Pleasure feels good but you can't have it without pain

They are flip sides of a coin, yet one in the same

You built a house where you should have pitched a tent

Now you sit and wonder where all your money went

We spend our lives keeping up with what we don’t have

Then complain we can’t handle it, well that’s too bad

Because in each Soul’s life we are dealt a hand

You weren’t dealt a flush but you wanna be Mr. Poker Man

Be careful not to portray something you’re not

Instead of bluffing for what you don’t have, play with what you’ve got

Guns, Money and the Bible make the world go round

Guns in war dictate who stands the final ground

Money makes the sane go insane and the seers go blind

The Bible gives instructions, but sometimes it’s just not in time

We are all blessed with choices because God made it so

Our choices will dictate how our Human existence will go

Don’t let Guns; Money and the Bible separate our Humanity

Sometimes our choices create our own insanity

There is no where to run when Earth is the target

But we seem to do all we can to ignorantly harm it

It doesn’t dawn on most of us that this is our home

If we destroy it with our presence destruction won’t be long

Go green and recycle and help Mother Earth prosper

Or one day we’ll look up and see that we’ve lost Her

Free will is great until somebody fucks it up

One decision can affect how the world is run

One decision from Bush Jr. bankrupted the entire economy

One decision from Martin Jr. changed rights for Blacks suffering

One decision put the first man on the moon

One decision can make a baby die in her mother’s womb

The decisions we make can make for good or bad

How your life turns out isn’t all up to Fate’s hand

L.I.P. - Live In Peace, why wait until you die

You say you can’t wait, yes you can

We are always in a hurry to move past the next man

You can’t wait to be rich, but rich people have problems too

You can’t wait till work is over but somebody’s bill is due

The words you use mean exactly as defined

You say you can’t wait, just leave that to time

You CAN wait there’s no need to rush life

If you can’t wait for life, you can’t wait to die

If the world was honest I could tell you what I really want to say

But we live in a superficial world and it’s just not that way

I wish I could tell you that you really talk too much

Or that when I see you coming I want to hide and duck

I wish you would stop and actually listen when you ask me how I’m doing

Instead of passing me by without even looking

If the world were honest, I could tell you to leave me alone

I guess I’m in the world too so I will put my mask back on

You go around pointing your finger at all of my problems

But you haven’t said one word about how to solve them

It’s easy to find fault when it’s not aimed at you

You say I need work well I think you do too

If you don’t have an answer to all the wrong you see

Then you can go on your way and away from me

In life there are complainers and there are solvers

Which one you are is determined by trouble and what follows

We’re so vain with our mediocre thinking

We think we know it all but we don’t have an inkling

We’re not scared to fail but not wise enough to know we can

Then criticize each other for not agreeing with the next man

Life isn’t all good it has some bad too

The prize is knowing that they’re the same just like you

You and your HIGH class self with your LOW class knowledge

You think you know it all but you can’t even spell college

You so high up that no one can touch you

Well think again boo-boo, cause no one wants too

Bring down that ego about a billion notches

You are a waste of time that’s why no one watches

I’m not tryna check you, but really I am

You bout as high as a green with no THC growing in the sand

Luck is relative or so they say/Slot machine been dead, soon as I get up, the next one gets play

Yeah I could win a million dollars but likely I won’t

Life surely goes on whether I do or don’t

I’m not being pessimistic just keepin’ it Grade A

I would ask why but I just keep on my way

Cause I don’t have time to worry about the hand I was given

Life isn’t all about the money it’s all about the livin’

I am my own chaos

Sometimes it’s just not your season

You tried your best but it didn’t work without reason

Now you are standing firmly back on square one

You can’t figure out where it went wrong you just know it’s done

So you retrace your steps to see where it all fell apart

Only to come back to step one to begin a new start

Life throws storms; some of them are full of rain

But the flowers need the rain to blossom again

You want the water to boil but you haven’t turned the heat on

You’ve been standing there for the longest wondering what’s wrong

You got your pot, you even filled it with water/But it’s not boiling and you can’t figure out what’s the matter/Well you have to have heat to make the water brew/Having an idea means nothing if it doesn’t move

Disappointment is a disappointing thing

You try your best but the song doesn’t sing

You plan, you plot to pave your way

But the more you need the more the delay

So hope lost hope and despair set in

No words could write the pen’s lessons

Life gives pleasure and then comes the pain

The rain is waiting for the Sun to show it’s rainbow again

I’m like Marvin moving down the line

I’m not a troubled man

I have a troubled mind

But I still keep it moving

One step at a time

Each step is harder but each step is mine

It’s like paying for something that you still haven’t got

Or painting the white lines before paving the black lot

Yeah life seems backwards but life is still the same

When I feel like giving up I just remember how far I came

They say sleep is for the Dreamers, well I like to dream

And even if it’s blurry it don’t mean a thing

No matter what they say it don’t matter me none

I won’t stop dreaming until my dream is done

MEchaNical by nature

NOTHING dies; EVERYTHING transforms into SOMETHING else

You can’t teach comprehension, no matter how hard you try

It’s something you have to catch on to like a dangling firefly

Once you got it, it’s yours and you can put it in your jar

But teaching the right way to grab it is the hardest part

Some people will get it and some people never will

Comprehension isn’t taught it’s caught purely by will

Weed your garden before it grows out of control

Your flowers won’t grow cause the weeds choke the flow

You don’t know why your garden is bearing good fruit

Well it doesn’t start with the dirt, it starts with you

Weed your garden and clean it for its sake

Flowers can’t grown when weeds are in the way

They say the ancestor of every action is a thought

What comes to fruition often has to be bought

Because there is a sacrifice for thinking, it affects the whole

Once energy leaves the mind stories get told

And those stories tell other stories and pass down the line

Some stories get mis-told some have facts intertwined

Whichever the case own all of your thoughts

For the actions that result could be the end of your start

Something happened and you didn’t know what to do

You told yourself a story on how to solve it but it eluded you

Cause you told yourself a story that was full of monsters and goblins

And your end result ended just the way you thought it

See the story we tell ourselves on how bad something is

Directly reflects the end result that’s given

Your story can end bad or your story can end swell/Tell yourself a good story and the story will end well

They say it could be worse well that may be so

But my worse is right now in case you didn’t know

Yeah I could be homeless with nothing to eat

I could be without a house and out on the street

But my worse is now and it could be better

I appreciate your support but what I need isn’t a sympathy letter

They say it could be worse that could be true

But your worse isn’t my worse and I’m not you

I’m sick but the damn pharmacy is closed

Can’t get cured from my mind’s woes

I’m sick I’m about to puke

They say all I have to do is say ‘flee and rebuke’

But I’m too sick for that I can’t seem to breathe

I need some medicine someone please

My mind is flooded and my heart is worn

Quick I need the pharmacy before I’m the one you mourn

Peel back a layer at a time until you reach my heart

Each layer hurts worse, each layer falls apart

Slowly I decay, slowly the wound dries

Just to be broken again from the thoughts consuming my mind

Beat one, beat two, my heartbeat lost pace

There is no point to breathing, but I do it anyway

Water fills my soul and floods over to my heart

They say I have to finish, but I don’t even want to start

Great Minds don’t think alike, if they did we’d be the same

The great thing about Great Minds is that they add originality to the game

A Great Mind doesn’t mean you have a college degree

Or that you know more than the smartest of society

A Great Mind is great because it thinks beyond the normalcy

Open your mind to me, Great Mind and you won’t regret knowing me

Good is OK, but great is so much better

I’m grateful to meet you Great Mind, let’s be GREAT together

We are a collection of suggestions, each of them bought

We wake up and move based on suggestive thoughts

A suggestion can make you taste something you never would dream

Or buy a pair of shoes because of the name that is seamed

We collect our suggestions and define them as us

Then impose them on others and call it just

Over inflated balloons are bound to burst

Collective suggestions mean nothing if you don’t balance their worth

You have those that don’t come to life prepared at all

They don’t bring their book and set themselves up to fall

You have the ones that bring the book but fail to open it

But feel good cause it looks like they know it

Then you have those that open the book but fail to read it

But they give the illusion of knowledge and dare you to believe it

There are those that read the but don’t understand

The ones that read with wisdom are God’s chosen ones

Life is ONLY about decisions and the repercussions that follow

Your current state is a testament to your impatient tomorrow

The choices you make will make Life good or bad

One bad choice will make you think of what you could’ve had

Let no one tell you that there is any more to Life

Humans use choice to create self imposed strife

So the next decision you make tell yourself this

The choices I make, make me what IS

I got the off day blues and I’m bout to lose my mind

It’s suppose to be my off day but the time still isn’t mine

Have to run errands for the house and take care of the child

Have to please those around me seems peace went outta style

Cause today is my off day but I’m still workin’ for everybody else

I need time for me before I lose myself

Autism speaks, even if you don’t hear it

Autism thinks but we don’t listen

You think he doesn’t know but he is fully aware

He can’t speak, but sees things that we didn’t know was there

Autism speaks and it is the joy of life

Don’t bother asking God for a reason or why

Because this child is His creation and he is perfect in His sight

His soul speaks for him, words are beyond his kind

Because he is special in case you didn’t know

He doesn’t speak words, he speaks from the Soul

When your tree bears bad fruit, re-harvest it to grow

If the tree bears bad foundation begin again with what you know

Bad fruit is born from malnourishment or invasion

Depending on which will help maintain your future creation

Malnourishment is the responsibility of the keeper

Blame no one but you when the tree dies for lack of the keeper

Invasion comes from a distance to take what has grown

You must protect your crop in order not to lose what was sewn

You ridin’ high but livin’ low

Bought some rims, you can’t afford

Say you the realest and I should know

Think you made it, but still in the ghetto

Think you got it, cause ya pockets thick

Half of it is 1’s you sold to get

Your rims don’t impress me or your red monkey jeans

I see you for what you are, not for what you seem

I got possums in my trash can they just won’t go away

The more I try to hide my problems the more that come to stay

The possums won’t let my trash just sit where it be

Instead they have to open it up and display it for everyone to see

I called the trash man to come and empty my problems

But he won’t go near it cause of the damn possums

So I will run the possums off and clean my mind

Thought I could hide my dirt but the possums get me every time

A bad habit is a bad habit no mater what the vice

Many of us give up one habit for another and trick ourselves twice

You stopped smoking cigarettes and replaced it with candy

You stopped drinking soft drinks but now the Internet is your fancy

We trick ourselves into believing that some habits are worse than others

When really a habit is a habit no matter what the Professor covered

So accept your habit if that’s what you like to do

As long as the only person you’re hurting is you

Facebook isn’t real the users are

But we get drawn in like a shooting star

We start beefs and express our dislikes

Then get mad cause you didn’t click ‘Like’

It’s amazing that a simple idea could spread so fast

Seems everybody you know has a word to pass

Good ole’ Facebook what a wondrous site

Just be careful not to let Facebook consume your life

Don’t think for a second that God makes mistakes

Human existence was God’s creation of his unfaltering grace

To us we’re not perfect but to Him we are Divine

Our existence was mapped out before we set foot on the ground

See our history is written for years to come

Humans are but ants wondering around in a pre-built ant farm

The lay out is there and we go as we may

But when its time to take down the ant farm, move out of God’s way

You keep living in the blind spot and people keep hitting you

You can’t figure out why cause you thought they could see you

You won’t get out of the blind spot, you chose to stay

Get outta the blind spot or live the rest of your life this way

Sometimes we try to play it safe, but safe won’t due

If you want to get out of the way, open your eyes and push that car on through

Cause one day your life will take its very last hit

Then you won’t have a vehicle to drive in the blind spot with

Lies and deceit are one in the same

If you have one you have the other and they both bring pain

Distrust is their cousin and it carries the load

It can hide the brightest light and tell stories untold

Lies and deceit, they mean u no good

If you ever meet em’ say

‘I wish you would!’

Cause they can only rule if you if you so allow

Lies and deceit won’t follow, if u don’t give them the route

Force, weight and speed determine your impact in life

Nothing can be changed without these three in sight

Force is your will and it moves your weight along

Weight is your body and will go far if you push on

Speed is your mind and how quickly it gains knowledge

I just impacted you; it’s your choice to acknowledge

Defeat affects us all whether good or bad

How you react to defeat determines your stand

Defeat can be used to cripple you down

But the blessing is when the jewel is found

Cause without defeat we wouldn’t appreciate the win

Defeat isn’t bad, the way you

mishandle it is

Green beans and Coffee beans are two off my favorite things

Both remind me of the many layers of me

Green is for the tree tops that cover the brown bark

Coffee is for the Earth that sprouts it from the start

They say beans are beans regardless of their shell

I like them both because inside stories dispel

Green beans and Coffee beans what a delight

Give me coffee in the morning, I’ll save my green beans for tonight

Is it me or the space I’m in/I can’t seem to fit in or blend

With all that surrounds me and all that’s inside

Is it the place I’m in or my silly pride?

Cause I can’t get out and you can’t get in

These walls are blocking me but it’s all pretend

Cause I built these walls that surround me so

Too bad when I built it I forgot to build windows

Cause I can’t see outside I can only see me

Someone knock on the door and set me free

I got car problems on the way to work

Just what I need and let me tell you what’s worse

I got $5 in my pocket and my car is about to stop

What’s a girl to do, because my car is running hot

So I pull over and put some water in

The car cranked up and started again

I don’t know for how long the car will go

At least I’m still breathing, on to the next episode

Some say color is only important to those who can see it

A blind man can’t see color, but his mind can perceive it

Purple would be the smell of lavender in the bloom of Spring

Yellow is the warmth that a Summer day brings

White is the cold when the Winter cuts the sky

Orange is the feel of a leaf brushing by

Black is the pain that feels up your chest

When your lover’s touch is gone from your breast

Colors aren’t made to just be seen

Colors to a blind man can make the most beautiful dreams

There is nowhere to run when Earth is the target

But we seem to do all we can to ignorantly harm it

It doesn’t dawn on most of us that this is our home

. If we destroy it with our presence destruction won’t be long

Go green and recycle and help Mother Earth prosper

Or one day we’ll look up and see that we’ve lost Her

We assume that cause the Sun is shining in our sky that it’s shining everywhere too

But even the Sun can’t cover the whole Earth all at once, it has to rotate through

Sometimes you think that the rain only falls on top of your head

Like the rain picks and chooses based off the life we’ve led

Everything must rotate to keep the balance afloat

Every bad act is balanced by a good one to tote

The night may be looming and the Sun out of sight

But this too shall pass cause we can’t have the Sun without the Night

The Echo and the Shadow get us every time

We believe the illusions we create and trick our own minds

You keep hearing sounds, but won’t go check it out

Instead you make a whole scenario on what it could be about

You keep seeing shadows, but you won’t go and look

If you did you’d see it’s just a branch brushing against a bush

Many of us make the money bag bigger than its wealth

Sometimes the biggest obstacle to overcome is yourself

If I could just get past myself, I would be alright

But every time I try to fly away from myself I miss the flight

If I could just get past my nerves I could say this piece

But every time I see myself saying it my knees get weak

If I could just get past my thoughts, I might be able to think clearly

But every time I think of something fear overcomes me

I finally got past myself, cause I was the only in my way

I no longer fear myself, in fact, I praise ME every day

They say fight temptation I say stay away from it

If its not there to deny them nothing will come from it

You’re in your relationship and you’re committed as can be

But your eyes keep wondering, so something is missing

If the desire to be with someone else is lurking in your heart

Come back to the middle and begin a new start

Cause temptation isn’t hard to fight when the heart is secure

The worst thing to do is stay and you’re not sure

Gravity holds Matter down and nothing else

The Soul isn’t Matter; it’s your true self

So when the weight of the world is steadfast on your track

Remember gravity can only bind Matter, so take your self back

Self is the Soul and it has no limits

So may God heal your waters so that you may swim in it

When Gravity is steady pulling you down

No worries dear Soul, soon you’ll be up off the ground

My Daughter asked me, ‘How do you know so many things Mommy?”

I said

‘I learned them.’

‘Yeah, but how did you learn them? She asked.

‘I breathe.’ I said.

‘Breathe?’ She inquired.

‘Yes, if you breathe, you can’t help but to learn, Nisa.’ I said.

‘As long as you’re breathing, you’re living, if you’re living, you’re learning. But you, little bit, try to breathe with your mouth closed, if at all possible.’

‘RELATIONSHIPS’ Through the Eyes of Poetry

You had a relationship

That just didn’t work

You had to jump ship

Now you can’t get back on the boat

You got fired from your job

You didn’t think it was fair

Now you want revenge

And gave away all of your cares

Your Father left you

When you were just ‘Ye’ high

You always wanted to see him

But he never came by

Your Mom went to jail

She left you all alone

You hate her till this day

You wish she would come home

Don’t be a dead man walking

Just let it go

If we don’t let go of “life”

We remain dead until we go

They say you never miss what you never had

But with every fiber in my being I miss my Dad

And although I never met him I still need him so

Sometimes who you need is who you don't know

My Fruit, Flies when you come around

I tried to stop it but the scent was too loud

I came out of no where and appeared in the sky

My Fruit Flies smelled you so I had to stop by

Now I’m multiplying because the fruit is so plentiful

Please don’t swat me away your fruit is so beautiful

Usually doesn’t stay usual for long

The hardest thing to accept is being misunderstood

One thing was meant but it wasn’t taken for good

We are all different but we expect to be just the same

One thinks it’s serious but one takes it as a game

If only you could tour my mind and I tour yours

Then we wouldn’t have to explain ourselves anymore

But we can’t do that it’s not that easy

God didn’t mean for life to be breezy

So I understand you’re YOU and I am ME

Let’s leave it at that and let it be

Resentment can be the cause of a lifelong ailment

Like a train that has suffered from irrevocable derailment

The relationship was on track, but somehow it’s fallen off

It seems neither will let go at any cost

Let go of the pain it does you no good

If you hold on to resentment, you leave no room for love

So when someone hurts you don’t hold it inside

Jesus couldn’t have saved the world if He was led by pride

It’s amazing how you get to know someone you hardly knew

And find that you have more in common than the assumption you drew

I have new friends that I didn’t know before

But now that I have them I wouldn’t ask for more

Thank your true friends and let them know you care

Life is a little easier with friendship to share

One last heartbreak is all it took

For me to pause and take a second look

You broke me down but I refuse to give in

You broke my heart but my spirit can’t be taken

So enjoy your freedom, I’m doing just fine

You thought you had me, but I’m already mine

You and your imaginary relationship that you made up in your mind

You can’t accept that it’s not real but you keep wasting your time

You imagined that he’d stop lying but the reality is he got caught

You imagined that he has a job but everything ya’ll have you bought

Keep imagining that he is all you ever dreamed

You’ll find yourself comatose cause you can’t wake up you’re too busy sleeping

Respect me and mine, that’s not much to ask

I said I’m in love and you say ‘I didn’t ask you that’

Well how bout I told you and I’ll tell you again

No I don’t like you and no we can’t be ‘Friends’

But there you go again with that same damn question

Guess I have to spell it out for you to catch the damn lesson

I. D.O.N.T W.A.N.T Y.O.U

Please respect my space

You say you want what’s mine, but it’s a thief proof safe

I don’t share what’s mine always been that way

I didn’t offer my food so stop lookin’ at my plate

You can’t get over me until you get over you

I don’t know how to say it, maybe I never will

You won’t let your guard down

You hide from me still

Maybe I’m not worth it

For you to even try

I know nobody’s perfect

But I thought I was worthwhile

Open your heart’s door

Please let me inside

Don’t hide anymore

Our limit is beyond the sky

Slap it when you turn it over

Tap it when you spin it round

Map it to find the center

Lap it when you bring it down

We are on two different pages of the same book

You are two pages ahead and I’m still trying to catch up

I ask you to slow down, you say speed up

We can’t balance this act, we can’t read this book

One last heartbreak is all it took

For me to pause and take a second look

You broke me down but I refuse to give in

You broke my heart but my spirit can’t be taken

So enjoy your freedom, I’m doing just fine

You thought you had me, but I’m already mine

We’ve been best friends for years and shared the best of moments

We’ve been there for each other but something’s been noticed

That dimple in your cheek has become attractive to me

Your voice has turned into a love song’s melody

I’m ashamed to say it cause you’re my best friend, its true

But I want more than just friendship, what about you?

What a blessing to have a family to see

Ones that you can call on in the time of need How foolish to take them for granted Without realizing that they too can one day be recanted

So when you complain about your family this Holiday Season Remember some don’t have one for whatever rhyme or reason

Be grateful for your family, I pray that you may

There are those that pray for family and are still praying till this day

We’ve been best friends for years and shared the best of moments

We’ve been there for each other but something’s been noticed

That dimple in your cheek has become attractive to me

Your voice has turned into a love song’s melody

I’m ashamed to say it cause you’re my best friend, its true

But I want more than just friendship, what about you?

You and your man didn’t make it cause his Momma had too much to say

That’s what happens when you let ‘The Family’ get in the way

What is a lady to do when Momma dis-approves

Seem like I can’t help but hear ‘Momma’ before every move

I want you to approve me ‘Momma’, but I won’t let you change my name

That’s for your son to do, now please get back in your lane

You like this guy but can’t get up the nerve to say so

Every time you see him you think about him goin’ low

And I don’t mean the Chariot; I’m talkin’ bout down south

But every time you see him you can’t seem to open your mouth

Take a deep breath and position your lips

Look em’ in the eye and tell him to picture this

‘You and me talking over some music & wine

This is the last time I’m gone wait until the next time’

You broke my heart, it fell to the floor

I pieced it back together, it won't fall anymore

Now you say I don't care, you know that's not true

I just won't let one heart break, turn into two

Nobody thought to take a picture

Nobody thought ahead

Nobody saw the big picture

Years went by instead

Why didn’t you take a picture?

I would’ve liked to see

Mom, I hate you didn’t take a picture

You didn’t stop to think about me

My adopted siblings are out of the picture

My Dad is too

You didn’t even take a picture

So I guess my imagination will have to due

You say if you were in my shoes you would do things differently
But you don't fit my shoes
You don't even wear my brand
So tell me how it's so easy to see things from my view?
We have a tendency to judge

Even hold a grudge
Not always out of spite
But just plain ignorance
Cause ignorance is "Not knowing" after all

You don't know me
But you judge me
You say "If I were you I would..."
But you're not me

You don't look like me
You don't walk like me
You don't live like me
You don't think like me

Hell if I had a twin IT still wouldn't be just like me
But YOU know what's best for me?
"The decision is yours" they say
Then what is God for?

Am I really just out here by myself?
Of course not
So how is it that you haven't gone thru what I've gone through
But you know what YOU would do?

It's easy to decide when its not you
But if it was you
You really don't know what YOU would do
Cause guess what?
Its NOT you

So don't tell me it's all up to me
If it was then I would know my dad
My mama never would have left me
And I would know my siblings

It was the decisions that were made for me that makes me, ME
That made me think like ME
Not out of choice, No…
This was forced

So please understand me when I say that I have is a lot of responsibility
And if it was completely up to me
I would be free
I would have no responsibility

But guess what? It's not up to me
I DO have responsibilities
Not just to me
But to everything that surrounds me

Is there anybody out there that can understand me?
Please! I'm begging you please
Stop trying to wear my shoes
My shoes don't fit you

Sometimes a misunderstanding will rain on your parade

Not enough was said to make it OK

But despite these feelings, you chose to move on

You can’t take back words that were said too strong

So this Christmas Season be filled with cheer

And enjoy special moments with those you hold dear

For what is love but to be nurtured and cherished?

It’s not the bad moments that count; it’s what you do with them

A bad relationship is like an onion in your life

It’s good for adding spice but sometimes makes you cry

I used to be with an onion, and they over did it

I tried to ration them out but I just couldn’t get it

I tried cold water, but the spice was too much

I have a new dish now and her onion spice is just enough

If you have an onion in your life that makes you cry

Try a new spice before they put another tear in your eye

His WAS was nothing to smile at and needed some polishing

Seemed the more I tried to make him shine, more dirt came following

His WAS has changed his IS, and now he’s better

He’s not where he WAS and what he IS makes for good weather

I can love his COULD BE because I see his potential

Now I see him in the future and his WILL BE is purposed, not accidental

She is a manifestation of her creation, she can’t help herself

Her parents, dwellings and thoughts don’t offer any help

Cause she is a manifestation of all of her surroundings

What makes a woman a woman is most times unfounded

Cause many variables make a woman who she is

You think you know her but out comes the wiz

Cause it takes a magician to get in her head

We’ve come a long way since Eve, we eat Oranges instead

I love the way God created you but I don’t like the man you’ve become

God created you perfect but you put shame to that one

Cause you have so much potential but you keep falling short

You say you’re a man but I can’t see your worth

Cause you treat women like nothing and call it right

You say you won’t stay that way, I think you just might

Cause you don’t take life seriously you think it’s all a game

I love the way God created you but I don’t like the way Man changed your name

HuMANity you were so perfect now you put God to shame

Kill me again why don’t you, I’m already half way in the ground

Kill me again why don’t you so you can hear me scream out loud

Please kill me again why don’t you, you know you want me to suffer

Please kill me again and don’t bother using the buffer

Cut me up into pieces, just like you did before

Kill me again why don’t you, I don’t want you anymore

It’s amazing how you get to know someone you hardly knew

And find that you have more in common than the assumption you drew

I have new friends that I didn’t know before

But now that I have them I wouldn’t ask for more

Thank your true friends and let them know you care

Life is a little easier with friendship to share

Sometimes we like to try on other people’s shoes

Then we complain they don’t fit to fancy our muse

Some shoes may be too big for our tiny nerves to fit

Some shoes too small cause our ego’s too big

Don’t criticize others cause they wear a different brand

We are made different, so wear your own shoes if you can

Males and Females were made for the point of reproduction

Love however is a Soul’s production

Souls have no gender and neither does love

No man can tell a Soul where its love belongs

Some may say different because of religious views

Belief is ours to own and it’s their right to fill their muse

I’m in love with her and no one can tell me different

Know yourself and pay no mind to others intentions

When you first meet someone it’s the honeymoon stage

Everything is like honey and you hold on to every word they say

You listen to their likes and bask n their beauty

You do your best to please them and claim it as your duty

But when the moon has gone and the honey is no longer sweet

Don’t get stuck in it, move your feet

Don’t hold on to love even when its full of doubt

Stop holding the honey jar if the honey ran out

I’m my own best friend; I’ve made up my mind

I will be the best friend that I will ever find

I’m my own best friend, I have my own back

I take responsibility 4 me & make up 4 all I lack

I adore my best friend; she is one of a kind

Next time you meet her, be sure to ‘Hi’

Beause I’m my own best friend, can’t you see

I’m the best at loving my best friend, my best friend is me

She’s a little girl lost in a grown woman’s body

Her Mama didn’t show her so she made sex her hobby

Daddy wasn’t around so she got no guidance from him

She was curious about men and once she started there was no stopping’

Men take advantage of her but she knows no better

She got lost along the way and nobody came to get her

Women, guide your girls cause the world is full of hunters

Teach her that life is so much more than wanting a man to want her

I like my coffee with cream and sugar

With a dash of honey and a good stirring

Steamy and creamy with the froth on the top

Fresh out the pot, good and hot

It’s been over a year now and my coffee is still good

She is just the right blend for my taste special taste buds

Yep, my coffee is still hot and tastes good on my tongue

Come on Lady, bring my coffee, I want some

She kissed me on my head this morning & it was the most beautiful thing

Just 1 kiss from her makes my heart sing

Cause I was feeling down and she came right on time

She turned my clouds n2 beautiful sunshine

Kiss me again Love, right there again

You make my heart beat, you let the sunshine in

I don’t want ANYONE else but her

I love when she says my name and if she said it a billion times, each time would just as special as the one before

Even then it STILL would not be enough because her voice is like air to me

And as I inhale every cell of her she in return keeps the strings in my heart beating

And we make melodies that turn into songs and those songs patiently wait to be sang again at the command of her voice saying, my name

My Lincoln Tunnel flooded

Her Hudson River wouldn’t let up

So she crashed against my walls

And said “No need to clean up”

We were lost without each other, like a Chess board with no pieces

We both played Chess but our moves weren’t strategic

See I let him make me King thinking I was proclaimed so high

Forgetting the King can move one space, front, back and side to side

She was the Queen to you and kept putting you in Check

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